I Will Never Understand

I have never understood, nor will I ever understand, what enjoyment some get out of hurting others feelings, be it with words or actions. The concept is beyond my grasp.

But, so many do enjoy doing this and enjoy inflicting pain, emotional and mental, simply by directing words or actions against another.

I've blogged before about how I eliminated several Facebook friends because of their postings, which were simply either trying to evoke someone's emotions or cause someone pain with the post.

Most of those ignorant and evil people have no place in my life anymore, and sure, some will say "I was just expressing my opinion" but that certainly wasn't the entire reason for the post they made. I even had one friend tell me he makes a lot of those posts "just to see who I can piss off and get a reaction from them."

Sorry, but someone who lives their life doing this must really be starved for attention or simply just enjoying arguing or provoking people.

What a sorry way to live a life.

I try so very hard NOT to hurt people or their feelings. Sure, I screw up at times and I will admit I have made Facebook postings before and then thought of how it might affect someone emotionally, and I try and get that post removed before it does do damage to someone's feelings.

But I do not intentionally go out of my way and deliberately try and offend or hurt someone.

Hopefully I've made a point here, if for no other than reason to spare one person's feelings from being hurt.

Thirty-Five Years

As hard as it is to believe, this coming Friday, February 22nd, will mark Peggy's and my 35th wedding anniversary.

There's been so much that has happened in all those years, and I won't lie and tell you they have all been awesome and wonderful years, but believe me when I do tell you that there isn't anyone on the face of this earth that I would have rather spent the last thirty-five years with.

We had a lot of things against us when we first started out, and we've tackled several obstacles over the years. Thru them all, however, we have remained together, for better or worse, in sickness and health, for richer and for poorer and we've beaten the odds when the odds were stacked against us at times.

I'm not bragging, I'm not gloating, I'm merely stating that I truly believe the good Lord above brought us together, despite all the challenges and the differences, and He knew we would rise above all those things and that we would truly be soulmates for the rest of our lives.

He's allowed us to walk down a troubled path at times, but those walks have strengthened us and have taken our love to new heights and made us both realize how very blessed we both are to have each other and to share a love so strong and so positive.

We have enrichened each others lives and we have developed a bond that rarely two people have nowadays...

This past weekend we went back to Sybaris for the first time in a few years and we reserved ourselves a chalet for the first time and we spent an afternoon, an evening, a night and a morning together, just the two of us, with no contact from the outside world. It was a special and intimate time and it was a time to reflect and be thankful for all we have and for all we have gone thru together...

I'm blessed beyond words, and I consider my marriage the biggest single blessing in my life. My wife Peggy has endured a lot with me and she's seen a great deal of changes in me over the years and thankfully, she has stayed with me thru it all. I am in awe of her each and everyday I have the pleasure of being around her. She completes who I am like no one else ever could and over the years I have discovered just how deep the depth of my love for her goes, as does hers for me.

So, in another three days, we will celebrate another calendar year together and we shall cross over the thirty-five year mark and continue on in this journey of life, love and marriage together.

How could I have ever doubted we would have come this far together?

I love you, Peggy Sue...happy 35th anniversary to you!

Rest In Peace, Nic

The beautiful brown alpaca I have my arms around in this picture had to be put down today...what can I say other than the fact that he was a most awesome and gentle animal and probably the best dispostioned animal out of the lot...I am sure going to miss him...Rest In Peace, Nic!

Down

So much of life I do not understand.

So many painful decisions that have to be made during the course of one's life and no where to turn for the right answers.

Hatred of disease, hatred of the rotting purtification of that which is living, then saddled with the decision to hasten the outcome.

Sometimes the gift of death is the most wonderful gift you can give to one who is suffering, despite what that gift you are about to bestow does to you.

I asked for an answer, and it seems this is the answer He has given unto me.

Even though it's the answer I was expecting, I don't like the answer anymore than I did when I hadn't been given it.

I don't admire my decision that I am going to have to make, and actually, probably already have.

The power and the gift of life is bestowed by the creator, yet at times, the creator reveals to us that it is time for the decision to be made to remove that gift and that power, and to take it away in an effort to be unselfish.

The burden has been passed to me and the decision to proceed is now mine to make.

I don't have to like it.

I don't have to understand it.

But it's me who has to make it.

And I'm still asking, "Why?"