A Satisfying Emptiness

A journey into words unfolds
As I try to bring into the light
The hurt and the very
Anger
Kept hidden in my heart for so many years.

We shared a special closeness
that was foreshadowed by an intense
Emotional unrest on your part
And I watched as the years went by
And you did your mental damage
Time and time again
To the seed
I had nurtured.

As the years rolled by us
You kept yourself and those in your life
Continually in our hearts
Yet all the while continuing to
Harbor
The evil spirit of animosity
Towards one so special in my heart.

Like a weak-willed soul, I tried to look past
This idiosynchrisy and try and acheive
An acceptance
In an effort to hold onto
This bond that had held us together
For so very, very long.

As happens in life
Sometimes
The catalyst that held this heavy weight
Between us, bore down with a burden
That required nothing of you
Yet you seized the moment
And in a fit of glory shared only by
You,
You fired it directly like an arrow
Into mine and my soulmate's hearts
Leaving a gaping wound in us both
Relishing in the orgasm of your self-fulfillment.

You have driven the final wedge, the final blow, and the ultimate
Exit of our bond.
As you live your life
As a legend
In your own mind
I hope this fulfillment of self-serving
Climax
Has been worth the price it has
Created.

You have become nothing in our hearts and
Nothing in our lives.
Yet I doubt you feel any loss
Because in your life
You only need to be fulfilled by yourself.

And you have always done that so very
Well.