60

Really...

Really?

Are you serious?

60 years old today?

Remarkable, considering I can remember saying I would never live to see 20, then 30, then 40, then 50...

And now, 60 years old.

It's been a fast 60 years, even with all the bumps in the road along the way, it's been a mostly smooth ride.

I've learned to accept some things along the way and I've been able to adapt to some things along the way and I've been able to change some things along the way.

Those things that I've not been able to change for the better I can at least accept them.

The great thing about my life now, 60 years in and able to retire before that birthday arrived, is that the people that are MOST important and that matter most in my life and actively involved in my life and remain a part of it, each and everyday. Those who have decided that I'm not important in theirs have their own reasons and their own hangups and I have learned to accept that for the most part.

I'm proud of who I am, where I have come from, what I have been able to accomplish and I am surrounded by people who respect me and accept me for who I am.

I am a truly blessed man and I hope the good Lord sees fit for me to come back in another 10 years and write a blog entitled "70." If not, at least I have the satisfaction knowing I got to write this one at the tender age of sixty, anyhow!

Blessings to all of my Faithful Few.

You make my life so full and such a gas!

34

Thirty-four years ago today my life changed forever when Peggy and I drove to Newport, Kentucky and were pronounced husband and wife by Justice Of The Peace George "Yatz" Henderson.

We've been thru a lot together over all these years. It's not always been a bed of roses and the road has had several bumps in it along the way, but true love has guided us both along this road together and we've made the passage thru the past thirty-four years together.

It is with humble pride that I thank Peggy for the past 34 years, and though I know I don't have another thirty-four years left in me, if I did, it would be truly grand to spend them all with her.

I am truly a blessed and lucky man.

Nascar Debut 2012

After watching the melee that I just watched on Fox, the Bud Shootout proved that occasionally Nascar can make some good decisions.

The new engine, the changes in aerodynamics of the cars and the larger restrictor plate made for some awesome pack racing tonight and pretty much eliminated constant two car packs.

The race was good, it was exciting but it did show that some kinks still need to be worked out to eliminate as many accidents as they had tonight.

And while I'm by no means a fan of Kyle Busch, he drove an unbelievable race and pulled off the perfect pass to win over my driver right at the start-finish line by about a yard.

It remains to be seen what kind of actions, if any, Nascar decides to take against the 48 Lowes team, who once again decided to try and bend the rules and flagrantly cheat on their Daytona 500 car.

What I would like to see is Lowes threaten to pull their sponsorship unless Chad Knaus is released as crew chief. I would be even more satisfied if Nascar banned him from all phases of the sport, but I would imagine what will end up happening is pretty much a slap on the wrist and maybe a few bucks being fined. When it comes to Nascar's so called fair haired boy, Jimmie Johnson, they tend to look the other way and let them do what they want. After all, he has won five championships, although one has to wonder how fairly they were won.

Anyway, glad to see season starting back up and looking forward to a great Daytona 500 on the 26th!

Go Away From My World - Marianne Faithfull

Still my favorite Marianne Faithfull song. Powerful tune about a love that can never be. Totally awesome words!

breeding ground

he beat his hands against the wall
he beat his hands against his head
he beat his hands against his side
he laughed without humor
he cried without tears
and the thought of nothing
but the ridiculousness of the situation
and how with perception
intelligence
breeds
foolishness

sorry?

has your laughter stopped
has the joke subsided
have you ceased talking
about me
as the freaks decided

that as pathetic as I am
and as pathetic as I'll be
you've never tire
of making fun of me

i give you the ammo
i give you the gist
you take it you break me
and yet you're still pissed

i promised you nothing
yet i gave you my love
but you always wanted more
than i was capable of

i wish you no ill
i wish you the best
yet you treat this life of mine
like a cold game of chess

i look to tomorrow
as a way to divulge
all these feelings i have
that you can't expunge

please leave me alone
and just let me be
and live in your misery
for eternity

Chasm

The pit of depression
Lies deep and
Dark
And is so very hard
To climb out of.